is there a plot to untwist? another ending than this? unfolding like a rose in bloom you're in a maze but can't see or in a line but can't lead it's hard to pick what you can't choose with the current strong and pulling at your feet the waves regress, the tides, they receive me some essence of yourself inside the sea the drift, the thrust, the fall sometimes my tongue's in my cheek or it's too loose, I can't speak I'll stutter, spit, and lose meaning could this be more than a flick? more like a slap on the wrist? that welcomes the unknown because there's times I regret the things I never did I never had a sober cigarette and now it's 4am and the monsters, they never rest they never go away put me to sleep, sound mind, sound dreams and I heard the clap of thunder a great sound, it was like no other then I woke up, eyes wide, mouth shut and I saw a flash of lightning a white sky, it was there to blind me the storm clouds were getting closer put me to sleep, sound mind, sound dreams and I heard the clap of thunder a great sound, it was like no other then I woke up, eyes wide, mouth shut and I saw a flash of lightning and let go of ties that bound me a ripcord of sorts in motion a lost soul out in the ocean you can't stop the world from spinning it's like time, there's no beginning its loose hands are seeking closure I'm right here, I'm just thinking it over because if I die, I'm taking you with me to the grave, eternally if I die

things change no, they were never meant to stay the same time erodes the past and hides the pain don't be afraid oh, even victors tend to lose their praise it's not just cowards who run away in parking lots and on the screen I watch you dance, I watch you sing through telephones and magazines you brought me hope, that's all I need 'cause you know what you want you're never going to get it by acting tough you're never going to get it until you give it up you've got this heart started, it's hard to stop it I love you so much I've loved you since the day you caught my eye when my boyfriend committed social suicide and it got me talking, it got me talking to you things change but there's always ways to stay the same a different name but a familiar face try to explain how one can move through all the waiting games a thousand steps but then a million ways in parking lots and on the screen I watch you dance, I watch you sing through telephones and magazines you brought me hope, that's all I need 'cause you know what you want you're never going to get it by acting tough you're never going to get it until you give it up you've got this heart started, it's hard to stop it I love you so much I've loved you since the day you caught my eye when my boyfriend committed social suicide and it got me talking, it got me talking to you that night in parking lots with the points of view (I'm just trying to keep it together) we spent a lot of julys and junes and now I sit with a silent stare and it's got me talking, it's got me talking (to you that night) a blank stare and an inside joke (I'm just trying to keep it together) you're the stranger I have always known I feel you there even when you go and it's got me talking 'cause you know what you want you're never going to get it by acting tough you're never going to get it until you give it up you've got this heart started, it's hard to stop it I love you so much I've loved you since the day you caught my eye when my boyfriend committed social suicide and it got me talking, it got me talking to you things change

in the parking lot where the sun cooks the rocks dry there's a hopscotch drawn that's gone unused since you were five and on the chain link fence there are vines growing to the sky but you don't climb that now you've got a key to the other side and you go "la, da, da, la, da, da, da" there's a school bus stop right outside of your window where the kids line up one of them's your next van Gogh but you will never know and that's just the way it's gotta be away the school bus goes chasing the lights down the city streets and they all go "la, da, da, la, da, da, da" well a goodnight is hard to find when you're out there on your own and when the lights turn out you'll finally see that everyone's alone and even though we are like each other we are standing separately we're like prisoners who are chained together different reasons to be free and a goodbye is harder because it means that it's the end but just because that one thing's over doesn't mean one can't begin and it's difficult to think that way when your time is running out and the paramedic on your chest you can hear the people shout: "don't let go" it's been twenty years, revolutions around the sun and things still aren't clear you aren't sure what you have become so you go "la, da, da, la, da, da, da"

there's a pain in the pit of my chest that's not quite full, that's not quite empty I don't think it's wrong to forget the world sometimes when life's been shitty and I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid I'm afraid it won't ever go away and I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid I'm afraid it won't ever go away because time and time again I'm defeated, I've been brought down time and time again I trip on nothing and stumble loudly time and time again I feel it coming as it shakes up the ground there's a truth in waking up and not knowing how to make it back to bed or singing loud enough to burst your lungs and filter out the rest I'm afraid I'm to blame, it's my fault, I was wrong I was so far away from what was right, I thought this is it, kill me quick, rip it off, band-aid strong it's going to sting, but it's the only way it can come off because time and time again I'm defeated, I've been brought down time and time again I trip on nothing and stumble back 'til I fall time and time again I feel it coming as it shakes up the ground you could collapse my lungs but there are better ways to take my breath away you could just give me a kiss or say this is it (or kill me real quick and you'll never have to see me again)

Houston, we've got a problem can you save us? I'm not one to ask for favors if I could get it right, I would Houston, I can see the meters falling the alarm's gone off, it is calling we're the worst ship lost at sea with no footsteps to retrace and the starlight as the interstate well I guess it's tough love if I want to make it home tonight are you picking up at all? it's hard to find a comfort in the calm well I guess it's tough luck when the static is not enough Houston, can you pinpoint our location? in this mess of information? can you tell me what to do? Houston, can you give me a good answer? I need the news, I need the weather how's the forecast look today? with no footsteps to retrace and the starlight as the interstate well I guess it's tough love if I want to make it home tonight are you picking up at all? it's hard to find a comfort in the calm well I guess it's tough luck when the static is not enough Houston, I can feel the ship, it is shaking I've got seconds now, minutes maybe and I've never felt more afraid Houston, though I'm not afraid of dying I've got some friends down there that like me and would kill me if I never made it home oh God, Houston, I've got a lot of problems, do you copy? my steering's fucked, can you guide me? can you bring me back to Earth? Houston, I've been screaming, can't you hear me? you've been silent, are you receiving? everything is going dark Houston, this will be my last transmission can you tell my friends that I miss them? can you remind them of whom I was?